There are days when I wish life could be over

“Life is a bollocks, I never enjoyed it and I have never experienced happiness. Depression was always a big part of me even before I knew what it meant. Life was always a struggle, and I don’t enjoy doing anything. There are days when I wish life could be over. I wanted to kill myself many times but I was a coward to do it. I was afraid that it wouldn’t work. People always turned their backs to me sooner or later. Except my wife. Im married for over 20 years now and she still takes a good care of me, I can’t figure why is she still with me…”